It is far past time to stop the induction , without consent of any human being on this planet,
especially the young and the old. Like the middle class braces the upper class, children
are our barometer; our measure . As you look around , you see the living bereavement that
results from premature ejaculation, that far too many folks accept as the holy grail .
I am a living example of the decent into the labyrinth to hell on earth , where I was not
seen, nor heard as a misdiagnosed mental patient , that was induced by addictive prescriptive
medications , and denied the Domestic Abuse , by calling it Bipolar Manic Depression.
For 13 years , I was unaware of guidance nor supportive understanding except by my sons,
initially , and then the hooks of the doctor , who recorded our entire 7 minute visit , as he
watched my life deconstruct , increasing more medicated and physically ill, co conspiring with
regards to his choice of words , as if I understood a word of his Latin , and chemical breakdowns ,
adverse reactions , and the ‘come back in 8 weeks” . In his medical notes , pertaining to my
very 1st adverse reaction to prescription medications , was Xanax , which I was unaware of
for it’s addictive qualities and without awareness , I took 5 per day for almost 2 weeks.
And induced nervous break down, because it was not seen as the break through that conscious
folks know that is releasing trauma through spiritual ie prayer, meditation , journaling, music
painting whatever brings you peace.
Peace has been denied, evoked by involuntary acts of inhumanity . As a woman, I know that
many negatives , beginning with unacknowledged childhood rape ( I will not defer to using
molestation) created a nervous, awkward childhood , of not knowing , and also coping
methods that were unhealthy and sometimes dangerous. My many efforts to communicate
within my family were not successful , but I had the support of a Dad, an imperfect man
which I acknowledged . Mom was more removed and sometimes toxic as seen through
the eyes of a child. Through the eyes of a woman , I know her to also be a survivor of
trauma, shame , and detachment , and certainly Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
And anger, directed at men, as a child, followed by detachments, was left hanging
as I was involuntarily induced , and addicted to a mental disorder I never had.
What I was toxic and completely rearranged as I witnessed, not only the discrimination
in my own home, when my partner was in, but the “Uncle Dad” who was the savior of
our sons and the victim of a “crazy bitch” as I became his cover for all his errors in
life, referring to our year long marriage observed 7 days before the birth of our 1st
son, as “having to get married” . The change in his plans took away any illusion that
I had a firm foundation, as did his rape of me , 6 days after birth. I stayed, in the knowing
as I found many years later , and 2 more beautiful sons , in my discriminated “chemical
straight jacket that , every facet of professionals and society , family and “friends”
which was perhaps the intent of some , and painful in the not knowing , that infects
many in the need to blame instead of responding in the response.
Recovery has been long and arduous , and still denial of my being alive , is the antidote
to the Abuse experienced by my 3 sons , ignored as was my Domestic Abuse
all of which has been normalized , as we work out our lives , the “triggers” of the past
unhealed are indeed PTSD, and it is past time to let the light shine , on what is now
The scientific proof that the DNA of a baby remains in the brain of a woman for life
was only confirmation and affirmation and that living connection , that has been abused
will be corrected if not by law of man( yet again excluding woman) , it will be the universal
law of nature , that addresses this human rights violation , that has been directed at women
and minorities , thus children , the mothers of whom, are often the poorest.
Whether a “cult” , an immoral act, a mental disorder , this totality of an axis of evil
is inducing ill mental and physical health more detachment, on already over stressed,
ill nourished kid