I did not even think of these things, no checking his phone , reading his stuff. I do recall loading
up the boys and going to a hotel he said he had a meeting at, and saw his car, and intuitively
knew he was meeting a woman . And I was upset and felt betrayed . I had that feeling often
and when the suggestions began to share our bodies with others , I was not interested .
I buried those negative thoughts , over and over, while he openly discussed his pursuits
and conquest , by giving it to an acquaintance/friend , and not until he walked out , did
I face the darkness of his soul that used sex in such a detachment , as to leave me feeling
like a prostitute. Far , far from where I needed and wanted to be in my heart, mind and soul.
Our marriage stagnated , toxic from his abuse , and allowance of his true life partner and
he was “saved” by the newbie and his Mom.