For many years my sons have vemently avowed that I know nothing . I do acknowledge
they have their own codes to live by as do I an it would appear that I never had then
or forsook them , not knowing I was in the dark about who I had married and I was
subjected to domestic violence/abuse by Peter Pan with what appears DSM codes
bonus point for his win/win, take it all , till she’s dead as has been revealed .
This is supported behavior of which many have experienced or originated. It
is seldom healed, this separation from loving, trusting, or hearing any one but
There is that abuse of the parent by a partner, family member(s) professionals
is accepted by those who critique by the standards and practices , that are antique ,
corporate , life altering and death and disease , that has addicted many unwilling
I was one who survived 13 years of toxic man man chemicals to treat bipolar that
was PTSD, unhealed, rape of my 5 year self and an abusive , man who presents
his Narcisstic , psychopath behaviors which get worse with his aging , as does
his self care , and his negative abusive manner just intensifies as our court visits
accumulate he threatens to reduce my paltry spousal , done his way when I was
not myself and represented by his lawyer’s former partner! Wicked stuff !
Like grave robbing , but made worse by the lack of professional expertise and or
lack of education in professionals who may be jaded by the same ole same ole
‘Boy’ system that just could be John Keddedy’s reference to ‘secret societies ‘
as we are beginning to have a few ‘ theories ‘ revealed .
And it’s getting more and more transparent . I wish to expose these fails, so that
true forgiveness can take root. I don’t know by sons now and they flip flop but I have
some legitimate reasons beyond heartfelt ones to transform this aspect of my life
with clarity , that in time they might have a more balanced and forgiving out look
on a critical human relationship that was challenged over and over , and it broke.
I will not allow that they lost their Mom , for some many egotistical , vengeful
folks who decry that for acceptance they had join in the total aniilation of Mom .
Secrets and lies always fail , always , the truth like the air , water , sun heavens has
like many of us been tarnished it shall be golden as we polish our hearts of gold
of collections of dust motes,
Happy New Moon
I have a lunch date:)