I am not stranger to professional err , societal err, as the undeniable is
now documented that medical error is the 3rd leading cause of death .
Chemicals , the brainchild of the economic growth , began a cascade
of dis eases . As a child of the 50’s my Dad was less than the average
income , having his Dad refuse to pay for books , as he needed field
hands ; this sensitive boy was studious which was something he never
lost but the did forget… as his stressors due to his physically draining
work were treated with man made chemicals his health reflected his
toxicity and was the voodoo doll of the geriatric professionals ,
especially after his accident and exit 6 months later as his more
holistic approach was medicated out of him.
He trusted medicine until he did not as he spoke to me of it deeply; so
offended that he was discriminated against .
He forgot his more holistic and chemical free approach and became
more than disoriented as his 5 prescriptions became 12 , several of the
exact same drug but different strengths which I corrected , as I found him
waking at 4 am and taking his medications, doing his breathing
treatment and after a bit sleeping a few more hours.
Then he tried to repeat his medications , which were once a day doubly
medicated as 5 of those 12 medications were mind altering psychiatric
drugs , and in my heart he was a casualty and disadvantaged by blood
kin, and officially contacting professionals was ignored and he exited
10 days later .
At this time I was slipping into the understanding of the ignored
truth of ” Domestic War” as a recovered client of the Industry of Death
that I consider chemical/psychiatry to be if it does much harm to the
The projection of shame/ blame/isolation is very abusive but the norm
as I wove through 13 years of legalized addiction with more ‘trips’
than Timothy Leery, without my knowledge or permission , and another
12 to acknowledge in my soul that I am a survivor for a reason .
The non supportive partner who abuses the other , in Domestic
Abuse was ignored from the very 1st page of charts that were all the
confirmation that I needed as I tried to heal my body of chemicals
I am not only sensitive to, but allergic to and I was blessed 10 years ago
by professional acknowledge of chemical toxicity.
I must adhere to non toxic approaches to repairing and prevention that
are a whole body healing.
I feed my body and my spirit with the grace of a divinity that found
me several times as I foundered , and found myself again , I can honestly
admit that the loss of any connection of 3 sons who do know abuse in
love will ever be my living grief as the alienation/abuse continues the
through our sons , as the epidemic of narcissi is revealed it begs study
are narcissi personalities a matter of Nature or Nurture ?
It was not only, the not knowing, trusting the system , but as life has
taught me that the poor show in repressive and depressive education
that now represents this country , does show up in the higher educations
as kids develop a very visceral view of the world , with more and more
extended families born ,gas lighting has become the norm and kids
pay dearly. Millions have the adversity like mine of fracture and critical
judgement and chemical/medical/legal error and healing denied
as the holy grail guide for professionals has too long been the psychiatric
“corporate” that overlooks the narcissi personality disorder .
Mother’s Day , I am releasing the harsh discriminate judgements of
others who do not see me, do not hear me, do not allow
matters of such soul deep healing . I have much to be grateful for
in these days of reclamation and that includes my humanity as a female
and a sensitive mother , wiser to ‘hearing’ and willing to be better still
in more mindful spirit , which have taught me heaven exist on earth
as one son exclaimed all this has made me ‘independent ‘ with the
goal of conscious interdependence ; knowing and doing better is
eliminating the obstructions especially those of abuse in any manner
by empowering positive support , it has begun and it is amazing to
be touched by so many earth angels !