This week has been testing me and I have had to transform a negative to a positive
as the challenge of an ulcerated colon hit just before a court appearance that was
demanded with no allowances , and ignoring that I was in transition between 2
houses . After the attempt of shaming me failed , I heard the true words of
responsibility, a first in a court of law. Reduction of SS and I must file for Social
Security on his, (so he won’t have SS ) and Lynn saw the whole of it and I was
not as depleted as I might have been alone.
In trying to push through this , I began an anti fungal which has me in a state
of detox, which is clearing my liver too hard ; a painful detox so I am cutting
back per instructions , to lesson the detox effects…In the time before I knew this
as detox , I am most certain my ‘toxic’ body was diagnosed as fibro and prescribed
pain pills, anti depressants etc. was the normal course of treatment . I am so glad
to have a Dr who knows this, and I called him after the pharma; who was not
knowing and bowed to the wisdom of my Dr.
My guides have revealed themselves , some old and some new , who have inspired
me for over 30 years when we were neighbors for over 5 years of us both birthing
and child rearing. Patsy and Steve are united and supportive and friends as well
as lovers and through their example I woke to the detachment present in mine
and the critical judgments that wounded me, and I tried to ignore and let my
mothering rock. So life was good despite of those infractions , or so I thought.
Patsy and Steven were at MickyGs and I shared my revelations and healing and
it was so nurturing a visit , I know we will see each other soon..
I met a very inspiring couple at Dogtown, Laura and Bill , and we hit it off in
a lovely exchange that was heart centered . They came in to eat at MickyGs.
I had a great black bass grilled and said so to Valerie who , checked and said
there’s one left…and I was rewarded with a delicious fish , to feed this tired body.
I have new folks as spring/summer draws out folks and they are loaded with
experience and so willing to share of their history .
I met new neighbors Karen and Ronnie, and they are so much fun with each other
after years, together and laughter just bubbled up and over , another inspiring
I do not feel lonely , or needy , for it is impossible with so much joy . David’s
Taylor James has his ‘little man’ look dressed for a wedding and the family
has molted into such a heaven on earth of bliss, it’s yet more affirmation.
As my furniture begins it’s transit tomorrow , I must appear in court again to
defend myself against unreasonable, unknowing,Ja
(Jayden & I last year at the Salem Duck Pond) Tina Danh
thus seriously threatening
actions . These are not unknown to me , and I am weary of the lesson so
I have prepared .
I don’t want to , and it is my nature to be of peaceful conversation , so I am
in acceptance and pray I am lifted higher as I am forced to slow down
and heal and align with the change I asked , coming in a tsunami of life
changes and knowing I can and I will ; as these folks , past, present and
future , quietly just show up with love lights and nurture ..I am home
and I am very thankful and very blessed